what can I do????

Saturday 29-9-2007 11.36am

I didn't know you have the power to make me feel so sad, so troubled. Maybe I was too anxious and enthusiastic about our friendship and my anxiousness to bring it to the 'next level' might have cause some distress to you. If this is the case I sincerely want to apologize to you.

Waiting for you for two hours online was tough but the moment you offline without giving me any reply really makes my heart sank........I begin to ask myself why do I have such a feeling over me......I guess must be I love you too much......no words can describe this feeling.........

Why must life be like that??? Why can't I find someone who I love and this person love me too........Is it a one-sided affair on my part?? Why can't my love life be smooth sailing?? People always say leave it to fate but when fate comes knocking, don't you think you must put in some effort too? But I hate it when I am always the one who puts in effort and the other party doesn't respond. Arghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! What should I do??????????????
In life there are many things that are not within our control.....so what can I do on my part other than pray hard and put in effort? I can only try my best.