想了又想。。。

夜深人静了，在床上听着那一首歌。。。。。脑子里突然又想到了你。。。。。怎么你可以说爱我，但是最终还是做了那个决定。。。虽然分手后，我们还是朋友但是心里头还是会伤心。。。总是会想到我们在一起的美好时光。。。摩天轮上发生的情景，乌敏岛上的开心，shopping时你突然紧紧的抱着我，肩髈好酸时你帮我按摩，累了时你的肩膀让我靠一靠，你的拥抱你的一切突然就这么不见了。。。。。。可是我还是会开心勇敢的move on 也会同时祝福你永远开心快乐。

first week of school.......and random thoughts

First week of school has jus pass.......losing my voice again.......haha.....and i am craving for chocolate :P Time really pass very fast......6 months have already passed for 2010.

Hope I have pass my DPT, haven call up AECES to get my results......thinking whether to get LV bag to reward myself.......hmmmm......let's see how much bonus I getting first........

The Taiwan trip in June was great spent my Chinese Birthday this year there...........super fun and wonderful I had a great time shopping and chilling out with my best fren. I really feel proud of both of us cos we didn't take any cab throughout the trip............only MRT and bus.......Yeah!!!!!! When will the next trip be????? Soon????

It's been a month since the breakup, well life still goes on despite me thinking about him sometimes and we still meet up occasionally, recently we meet up for movie, Toy Story 3 =) glad that we are still friends but our thinking and goals in life are very different.

Taiwan Trip 2010 5/6~11/6

I am back from Taiwan =) it was the best holiday trip ever with my best friend!!!!!!!!!!!! Shop like crazy..........1kg more my luggage will be overload and my hand carry plus my check-in luggage = to my weight..............haha..........come to think of it now, how did I manage to lug everything back home???????????haha.....................

We went to Ximending, shi lin night market, yang ming shan, taipei 101, Dan shui (fishermen wharf), Maokong cable car, Wu Fen Pu, and etc............it was awhole loads of fun...........I really enjoy myself to the max!!!!!! I LOVE Taiwan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will be back again soon ya =)

end of our 2 months sweet relationship...........

29-05-2010, I will never forget this date........the day we end our sweet 2 months plus relationship.........I cried like mad in my room......you can never image the pain in my heart.........

You said our character don't match and that we are two different person with very different thinking.......You said you like woman who are capable and independent..........I know I am not that kind of woman.........with that we ended our two month relationship................

It's been three days........somehow.....the lost feeling still crept up to me silently and suddenly........I admit I still think about you.......but there's nothing I can do............except to keep the feeling in me.........sad..........but there's nothing I can do except to wish you the best in your life and your future............

prawning on our happy 1 month =)

Wow.....!!!!Look at those prawns

Our catch for the day!!!!!!!!!

First try at Prawning..........=)

Had so much fun prawning at Bishan with darling......haha......he thought me how to prawn cos I am a newbie (first time leh).......and at the same time celebrate our 1 month together =) Prawning is challenging and fun at the same time.......after which we BBQ the prawns that we have caught and it was yummy..............=)

Happy 1 Month.......=)

It's been a month since we get together..........=) he woke up at 9am this morning to cook for me and now he's tired (me heart pain lor and he has yet eaten anything since morning).......I wonder what he cook for me today.......he so secretive lor....haha......and we are going prawning later......wow.....my first attempt at prawning.......and will also be going East Coast Park later =)

Suppose to be on a week of no-pay- leave to do my pract report but so sian lor........but yes.....i m doing.......have to constantly remind myself not to 'jia zhua' haha.......my target for this week, settle the literature review and survey questions.

Time pass so fast, 1 month together liao.......hope we can have many many sweet and happy months together to come and Happy Happy 1 Month =)

am i ready.......

Maybe it's not easy being in a rs......somehow or rather......we just pass the 3 weeks mark in our rs yesterday and only to start quarrelling today. Because of my voice........he say i never take care of myself......, i say i m xiao nu ren.....but he dun like........haiz.........sometimes i feel i understand him....but sometimes i feel i dun.............i also dun know wat i should do...........i think i still got many things to learn in a rs.............

love is in the air!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love is in the air on Singapore Flyer on Saturday, 20th March 2010 =) On our second lovely date, my dearest darling asked me to be his beloved girlfriend at 6plus on Singapore Flyer when our capsule was right at the top =) of course I agreed =))))))))))))) sooooooo romantic =) I love you my dear darling Jensen Y. From this moment, I hope we can hold hands together loving and share every moment of our life together =) love you lots!!!!!!!!!!!!!

super busy......happenings lately

Course will be coming to an end soon in about a month's time =) last month of lectures to attend, assignments to be completed and not forgetting the most important Practicum Report which I should have started on. In a simple summary.......tonnes of work to be done.

Term 2's planning work has already started amist all the work I have on hand now. Wah.....will I have time to breathe??? Thanks to my great team of colleagues who have rendered their help in a way or another. Take a step at a time ya.

Went to Mt Elizabeth last Friday 26/2 for my vocal cord nodule check up. Bad News......nodule is back and it's worst than ever before......taking med now to reduce the swelling but don't think it's gonna help my nodule disappear. have to go back during the school holidays for check up again. I can only hope that the nodule disappear cos doctor says if the nodule harden then the only way to remove will be by laser op :(

A good receipe for cooked play dough

I have something great to share with everyone.

A good cooked dough receipe:

2 and half cup of flour

1 cup of salt

2 cups of water

3 teaspoon of oil

2 teaspoon of cream of tartar

*Note: If you are adding colouring, mix it into the water for a nice even colour =)

Happy Lunar New Year

Yummy Abalone

Orange plant from Island landscape, Huat ah!!!

Beautiful flowers from Island landscape =)

The year of Tiger is just around the corner, wishing everyone a happy, prosperous and healthy new year =) the pass few weeks was busy, busy, busy...work, assignments and new year shopping. Let's hope that the new lunar year will be a great year for everyone. Huat ah!!! Huat ah!!! Huat ah!!!

My philosophy in life

This is my Philosophy in life (subjected to copyrights)

Eat what you want to eat
Love who/what you want to love
Do what you want to do (as long as it is not again the law or your conscience)
Buy what you want to buy

and

Be brave and go after your dreams!!! (if not years down the road you will live to regret that you didn't try hard enough)

When it comes to shopping, I always tell my family and friends,

A girl's wordrobe is always lack of that shirt/dress/skirt etc
(nu ren de yi chu yong yuan dou que shao na yi jian yi)

Haha...I know you will say it just an excuse for me to shop...but whatever...
Shopping is every girl's hobby.

Enjoy =)

Fun day at sentosa with you and frens =) 30-1-2010

It's been such a long time since I last saw you. Thanks for inviting me to the event and Yes! Yes! Yes! I had so much fun at sentosa on Saturday 30-1-2010. Although I had body aches on Sun when I woke up. Was really glad to meet and know so many friends from different country ;) Korea, Japan, China and Malaysia.

I love the twink in your eyes, and yr sweet little concerns I have always admire you. Your seriousness, your leadership, your humorous and your craziness. Seems like I am falling for you but I know you treat me like a little sister........and I do not want to risk our friendship thus I did not say anything to you but the concern that I show to you, I hope you do sense how i feel...I am surprise to see what was on your back and though you didn't tell me much, I could sense that you do love her alot and i respect you for that. Maybe no one can replace her in your heart. I do not hope for more at this moment I know your focus is on your career and jus hope both of us do really keep in touch and as for the future, I do not know what it holds but I jus hope it will be fill with happiness for the both of us no matter what happen..............

weekend updates

Fri night: Went shopping last Friday nite after work with my best friend =) bought 3 shorts from iluma but end up 1 of it didn't suit me well and I had to go back on sat nite and change it to a bigger size for my sister. Went bugis street also and I bought a pair of legging. Over at bugis junction, I fell in love with a casio watch =) that cost $250. Considering whether I should buy.........hmm I REALLY REALLY like it lor!!! We went suntec also and I bought a super nice vest from cotton on at only $10, it's a real deal man!!! and also a nice top to go with either jeans or legging. After that we had dinner at Mac then girls talk at esplanade till about 1am.

Sat: Despite being super tired cos less than 5 hours of sleep, I drag myself to go for class. (whole day lor) After that at night, went to paragon to check out something from toys r us and visit claire's grandma (hope she get well soon, it always pains me to see patient in the hospital) So coincidently, I meet Erick as I was crossing the road to Paragon from Mt E. He changed a new car and was on his way to music dreamer for performance. L called me again, and we had a short chat on the way home in the car, when I reach home, we chat again but think he tired lor cos he was talking nonsense....haha. And at 11 plus, my long time fren who had not contact with me for quite sometime, msg me to say want to return me the $80 dollars that she borrowed few years back (surprised lor) and she even got me a box of my fav Ben and Jerry ice-cream with 12 mini tubs inside the box.

Sun: Went for breakfast with parents, then read newspaper, listen to radio, surf net, chat with best fren and update blog. going for dinner later and recharging for tmr as I have to go back to work.

P/S: Going to be real busy soon as assignments are coming in and there are work to be done in the classroom too. Looking forward to Chinese New Year!!!!!!!!

after 1 week of school...

Happy New Year!!! 2010 will be a better year =)

1 week has pass since school started.....the kids are still crying and I am trying my best to help them settle down before I can officially start my lesson. Very stressed out...cos I do not have an assistant teacher but luckily, Yue lao shi and Auntie Phung are really two wonderful asistant as they really help me alot...I REALLY dread going to work. HAIZ......sometimes I really feel like breaking down cos I am putting in so much effort in my work but no one seem to be noticing...it's sooooo unfair lor........but what can I do???

Course will resume again in 2 days time. Few more months and I am going to complete my Diploma course =) Hooray!!! Jus the thought of it makes me feel wonderful =)

Suppose to meet him this weekend, but in the end we didn't meet as we were busy with our own things but I am glad I got to chat with him today =) dun know why but whenever he call I feel very happy but our chat was being disrupted by an incoming call from his handphone and he didn't call back as what he has promised. Maybe he busy ba...I think I fell in love with his personality.....the hardworking character, mature and humourous him...it seems from not being able to accept the age gap between us (11 years) and (I haven get to meet him yet) to slowly falling in love with his character...it's jus so amazing...but sometimes there seems to be many things that I need to consider and all the 'what if' start appearing in my think but sometimes I do not want to think too much...if we can 'click' if he can love me and dote on me whole heartedly then why not.....after all they always say you don't need a reason to love further more he single and so well available...haha....I really hope to meet him soon and I hope love sparks will start flying soon between us........haha......oh-uh.......am I thinking too much liao........anyway hope love is in the air soon!!!

Happy New Year 2010!!!

Yeah!!! It's a brand new year again =) Lots of things to be done on my wish list:

1. Bring my grandparents on the Singapore Flyer (I just can't wait)
2. Complete my Diploma Studies =)
3. Go on to get my Degree in Zoology (I know this is difficult to achieve cos of $$$ matter and other reasons as I have to fly overseas to study for this as it's not available in Singapore)
4. Go for a holiday (hopefully Tokyo trip in June with beautiful mummy Liz)
5. Get my dream job to work in the Singapore Zoo as an animal keeper (I want, I must and I can't wait to)
6. Learn a new language after my diploma studies maybe Malay or Spanish.
7. Continue with Yoga Lesson.
8. Continue with Salsa Lesson, brush up on my salsa dancing.
9. Learn a New Dance---Bachata
10. Start baking and cooking again cos although I love to bake and cook but after I leave school I haven been doing it cos I am too busy with work.
11. I want a Louis Vuitton bag =)
12. Put on weight!!!

Happy, Healthy and Prosperous 2010 hopefully this will be a even better year for everyone!!!

2009............on a whole

I know I have been MIA.............................sooooooooooooooo long since I last blog.....so this gonna be a long entry.

It's Christmas today so hope that everyone have a Happy, Merry, Jolly, Wonderful and Fantastic Christmas and an Excellent New Year ahead =) may peace be upon the world, less suffering and proverty. we should count our blessing everyday and be thankful. Most of all hope my dreams can be fullfilled in 2010 soon =)))

First and all, why I have not been blogging cos of my DPT course, I must really say it's really tough coping with my studies and working. On top of juggling both equally important things, stress and more stress along the way.......especially when assignments starts coming in and work gets a bit handful........I am literally on the verge of madness.....haha.....but well.......everything still fall into place nicely at the end of the day. It's really great as I really have the full support from my parents who really pamper me (but not in the sense of all my shopping items....haha). they really take good care of me when I fell sick cos of the highhhh stress level........not to mention me fainting twice, once in my class during course(my lecturer and course mate really got a shock from me) and another time at home :P (sorry mum and dad, i gave your twice the shock).

19th September 2009--- My dearest maternal grandma passed away at the age of 91 (if I remembered correctly)........so sad...........................I received the news a day before Steph wedding thus I could not help her. Sometimes I tell myself when u wanna do something, u really gonna do it fast and do it now cos I actually plan to go and see my maternal grandma the next day after Steph's wedding...........but soooooo superrrrrrr saddddddddd cos I never ever will have the chance to go and see her again hold and stroke her hands again (tears just roll when ever I think about this.....but well life still gonna move on rite........)

13 November 2009--- School Concert. First time taking K2s and thus first time I have to prepare for School concert =) Phew!!! luckily everything went right at the end of the day =)

21st November 2009--- My best friend Nisha got married and is leading a blissful married life now =))) sooooo Happy for her =))) hope a baby is on the way soon my dear ;)

27 November 2009--- I still remember it's your birthday. Happy Birthday G. It's been about 2 years since u left Singapore and if I am not wrong, u are back right, hope everything is well for you. Although we have lost contact with each other and in the future I do not know if we gonna have the fate to meet each other again, jus wanna say you will always have a special place in my heart. Andddddddd there's another reason to celebrate on this day cos my best friend, sister, colleague Liz gave birth to a super cute and handsome little prince =))))) Baby Zachary =))))) congratulations, this fine young man, I think he's going to become a pilot too some day ;)

With 2010 coming around the corner, I just hope it's going to be a great year ahead for my career, health and hopefully love life haha........have a wonderful new year =)))

Jus how long more can I hang on????????????????

EVERYTHING IS DRIVING ME CRAZY.......CRAZY......REALLY CRAZY............sometimes I jus can't take it anymore........why are things not going my way? So many things to juggle.......jus can't go on anymore.........why?why?why?so much thoughts running through my mind...........so many things, so little time, jus what the heck do u people want? I feel like I am at my wits ends sometimes..........jus can't understand people's thinking..........I am also a human being.......I also need love and care......some time I think I jus can't find the meaning to carry on in life........what has the meaning in life become when the mean is gone?????????????Can someone please tell me the answer?

the love and the pain

Wednesday 10-12-2008 11.25pm

It's been more than a year since I got to know you.......fr seeing u at the MRT Station during the salsa trial class to becoming classmate and dancing with you.......all these have left a lasting memory in me.......fr a strangers to a person who I love and will think about everyday......I will never forget the memories we shared in class......our passion for salsa dancing......the comforting words you will say to me each time I get nervous about a certain dance step.......yr presence certainly makes dancing more enjoyable...........then u got posted overseas........and that was when our contacts got lesser and lesser.........or isit what I have said to u? But I was jus trying to get my feelings known to u......maybe I shouldn't have.....maybe I should jus keep it to myself.....could that have been better?I LOVE you and I REALLY do.......is that wrong? Now I am trying to live with this pain........this pain that's gonna stay in my heart no matter what I am going to do or say.....nothing is gonna change the situation I guess......this is the pain that one can feel truly when one has true deep feelings for the other party..........love hurts...........I learn to let go but each time I always failed......jus when I think I am starting to feel numb the feeling will come back stronger than what I expected........is this what I am going to live with for the rest of my life......I need someone to come save me out of this situation......but who can.........maybe someone who my love for him will be stronger than what I have towards you.......but where is this him............I am tired...........very tired and confused each time I think abt this.......they say time will heal all wounds but what abt the scars..............

vocal cord nodules

Thursday 23-10-2008 8.25pm

I went to a ENT specialist @ Mount Elizabeth Hospital last Sat. My ENT specialist who is an expert in voice disorder, diagnosed me with vocal cord nodules.

What are vocal cord nodules?
Vocal cord nodules are callous-like bumps on the vocal cords. They can form on one or both of the cords. They usually are located on the front 1/3 of the vocal cord, and range in size from a pinhead to a split pea. During normal speech, the vocal cords should press firmly together. However, if nodules are present the cords cannot close completely. Therefore, extra air escapes and the voice sounds hoarse and breathy as a result.

What causes vocal cord nodules?
Any one or more of the following can contribute to the development of vocal cord nodules:
1) Misuse of the voice
The use of an incorrect pitch, volume, or quality
Inadequate breath support
Excessive tension in the neck muscles when speaking
2) Abuse of the voice
Excessive shouting, screaming cheering or crying
Strained vocalizations (for example, sounds used to imitate animal noises or motors)
Excessive loud talking
Hard vocal attacks (starting words abruptly)
Excessive coughing or throat clearing
3) Other factors
Chronic (long standing) upper respiratory infections or allergies
Exposure to smoking
Reflux (stomach acid coming up the swallowing tube)
Endocrine or Hormonal imbalance
Fatigue
Allergies
Personality or general adjustment of the person

How do vocal cord nodules develop?
Vocal abuse and misuse cause the vocal cords to close with excessive force (i.e. bang together). This may result in the formation of vocal nodules at the point of maximum contact. As the nodules begin to form, a slight reddening can be noted on the margin of the cord. This reddening is soon followed by a localized swelling or thickening on the edge of the cord. Finally, a definite nodule or bump develops and becomes harder and more fibrotic with time, just like a callous can form on your hand if you use a shovel without gloves.

Thus I had to go for voice therapy during the sch holidays. I hope that will help and I really wish that my voice will be back to it's original form soon but at the rate that the children behave.....haiz....I think my voice will only get worst........trying not to shout in class but YES!!!! it is very difficult........kids are really naughty rascals...............and they DO NOT LISTEN!!! Occupational Hazard.............it really is as according to the doctor is a common problem in teachers.........haiz.......this is what I get in return for my passion...............What can I do..............the doctor says for this problem to heal, other than the therapy class, a lot depends on the patient themselves.

Oh yes, my DPT course is starting soon.....looking forward to it but at the same time a bit worried about coping with work and course.........just can only say I will do my best and take one step at a time.