confused state of mind

Monday 26-5-2008 9.46pm

Have been very busy and tired ever since I started out on my new job as a Birthday Party Host.......it's been a week since I started this new job but I am still very confused as to whether this is the rite job for me......hectic man...... trying to be a birthday party host........lol.....but I enjoy being at the receptionist. Learning how to operate the cashier, welcoming the customer and doing fun patrols......

Thought of going into sales line........having been giving a good thought on what the person said to me when I went for interview that time......I should give it a try since I am still young. Since this has been what I wanted.......jus give it my best shot and a good try....at least I will not have any regret in life...........even if things don't turn out well....... at least I can say I have tried my best and not keep thinking.......of all the what ifs.........

Maybe a month........after which I will see how things goes............can't help but feel stress.........cos I dream again last nite that I went back to my old workplace to work again......which is not what I wanted.....twice already....the same dream...........isit I think too much or isit I am too stress.........whatever........I should learn to take things easy and take one step at a time............

What should my next step be?

Friday 9-5-2008 9.27pm

I am so stressed..........but luckily I had a great destressing session @ St James (Dragonfly) last nite. Think partying, clubbing, drinking and drinking. Lol.....no a lot but a bit of whisky coke =)

Anyway I am kinda of confused =( cos I do not know if I should continue to try to find a job or I should go upgrade myself and further study.....maybe a diploma would be good. Let me do some planning first before I take my next step. Wish me good luck k ;)

Salsa intermediate 2A will be starting tomorrow but I still can't make up my mind whether to take up this course or not............Arrrrggggg so much things on my mind at the moment........

sian.....

Wednesday 7-5-2008 9.31pm

Hav been busy looking for jobs recently. Went for interview at few different company. eventually tried the admin position but didn't like it, quit after 2 days but still got to pay one day salary on top of working FOC........but no choice....cos my partner or so call boss.....very bad temper......haiz.....then today went for another interview but the job is not my type lor.......lots of calculation and statistic reports to do.....think i will go crazy.........lol................although dishearten but will continue to find.......I will not give up........